Dear you,

Dear you,

Hows it been up there? Eating well? Drinking well? So much to tell you. Missed you. Today has been vulgar. Could have been better. I am at the verge of calling it off, but i know i can't, its still so new. There are choices to make, i've made mine but not to sure about it now.

My little myvi got a new dent today. No, it is not caused by my driving skills. Since morning, it was parked at the same spot. Really! i didn't go to the floor today. But that awful log just fell from that inconsiderate tree and scraped my little one. The dent is not small nor massive so i am quite skeptical to do a full paint job just yet. So how? Where are your wise words when i need it.

Very much of a rollercoaster. Everything seems crucial, every decision marks a point in life. Won't be able to undo anything without a scar or a damage. SO how how how. Nomatter how much i sleep, the body doesn't recuperate. Where you la. Come and tell me its ok. Watching from above won't help you know.

I'm going to bed. I'm exhausted. Make sure you get an early night.
Talk to you soon. Good night.

Me

POOOTOOOII-ness has got to go!

I was cruising my way through the KL centre after work, tailing a motocyclist. No, there wasn't any snatching or drama of that sort. That motorcycle's front sat a male adult and a boy behind.. he was about 7 years old odd.

So, as i was saying, cruising back home. No rush, no over taking, no honking.. just ordinarily normal lah. Into details, Pavillion the new exclusive shopping centre was just on my right. People rushing home to buka puasa, every one in their smart office attire walking towards their intended destination. And also i peeped at some gorgeous faces in cars, some walking at the side walk. Can't help myself.

Then, the man on the motorcycle turn his body partically to the left went... (ok, i did not literally heard it but you know what i mean) Gaaaauugggg.... POOO TOOOOIII... on his left side. THEN THEN THEN, about less than a minute of driving, he turned his face to his right and again... POOOTOOOIIII....

Imagine walking at the side walk and ter-stepped on somebody's pootooi. How exciting. It ultimately gross la. That while glue-ie thing spat on the floor. Yuck. I'll not go into the germs lying about, flying in thin air, into our nostrils. Bluek. Excuse you, can Pootooi into tissue? cannot find tissue then, take part of your t-shirt and pootooi into it and fold it la. At least nobody would see it.

ARGH!! I AM GOING INSANE. Ok, lets not go into the OCD stuff but common basic hygeine how? The little one at the back probably think its normal to do that.

AAAAAAAAAAHHHH! how how how how how. This minute, i must say i prefer Singapore. EEEEEEEEEeeee.... NANDAYO??

*can't find a decent picture to insert here. Will make it up later. hopefully... if i'm still alive then.

Eyes

In the eyes of a photographer. Behind that expensive lense, i wonder what do they see. A different view? A different perspective? or just a photostate machine alike.

Whenever i see a picture appear on the imac, first shot second shot third shot.. click click click... it all looks the same to me. But for them, it seems to be different. The lighting not right, the power not enough, more exposure, put the board here, the white one there, black one here...

I with my layman's eyes, so tak boleh. To me, its the same. Penang char kuey tiaw and KL char kuey tiaw taste the same to me. Its char kuey tiaw.

Thats maybe why they are professional photographers and not me. haha.

Anyways, i guess thats why i am where i am.
Was just off the phone with a friend just updating each other on our life, she guessed i might be real busy this time cause the lack of updates here. Maaf ya, a bit no kuasa. May May kena more semangat!! HAP two three four!! must try to juggle everything... learn how to balance sikit.. time for everything for everyone.

Pipu

HAH! i just realised i hit the 100 post over.

It has been a while since i started blogging. Hope theres still people coming in here to 'visit' me. The recent posts have been quite whine-nie. All i do nowadays is blab about the bluntness of life, work... How exciting.

That shows how interesting of a person i am.

So far, job wise, it has been very consuming and challenging, not a minute to loose type. It keeps me running and going. And i have come to appreciate it more. So far so good. That is if i keep the emotional side neatly tucked away.

At this point, i realised how strong work is able to divert a person's mind. Work then Home then Exercise (if not too tired) then Sleep. Then the cycle repeats itself. Other than journey driving to and from work, theres not much time to think for oneself. yea, maybe some alone weekend or some yum cha session.

Nomatter what is done outside work, its an effort. I salute those we 'pou' often. If its just me, i think the age is really sinking in. I'm getting OLD OLD OLD.

Ah, time to sleep. Another long day tomorrow.

Can't show pictures of shoot and all, you guys can see it in the upcoming mj's mailer! haha...

To end, i present you the serenity of Sentosa Beach. The place where i wish i could be at this current moment.

Loose and Gain

Its my first time being in retail, and of course it has been challenging since day one. A lot is expected. And more will continue to roll in i'm sure. Theres so much to learn here, its like another set of course, taking different subjects. The coordination is vast, most of the time i'm in a maze. Need adjustment.

Besides the work adjustment, theres also life adjustment. Of course it also goes side by side. My eldest aunty passed away on Thursday. She left all of the sudden despite the 'good reviews' of her getting better. The news is still sinking in to us all. All the festivals will not be the same anymore... Christmas, Chinese New Year, Reunion dinner...

Partly because of the previous job's exposure, life is fragile, life is short has never been clearer. Every now and then i have to constantly be reminded of priorities. Can i achieve my dream and yet live to the brim? Can't have everything can i? Loose and gain?

New

It felt like i have not been on cyberspace for a long while. But me saw last entry dated 28th. Not to long ago.

But lots of things have changed these few days. I just had to come online and pen it down.

Its 218 am in the morning and i have just got back from work. The best thing is, today is my first day. Being fair, after 6pm i came home, wash up then only head to the other outlet. Still not too bad.

Along the line, somewhere today, got hit by a tornado, a terrible wreck.

Our big car banged into someone's back. Our car, bad. How bad? Does changing the whole bonnet sound bad? Number plate with 3 alphabets and 4 numbers became only 1 number. To me, its bad. Then since mom's car was outside. I conveniently took her car instead of mine. Then la the problem started when i shut down the engine when decided to move the car to another parking slot, AND the final then, it just WOULDN'T start. (luckily know earlier, imagine calling dad at 2am in the morning car cannot start. can die) Thank God!

*i can hear some evil laughter. Laugh all you want sicko.

The saver aka Daddy came to the rescue as always. Jump started by died. again. again. and again. So, he went and bought a new battery and changed it. WALA! Daddy aka powerman saved the day. My daddy is awesome lah. Just superbly awesome.

Thats my day. And oh, just incase you didn't know, I'm currently with Metrojaya (I HAVE GOT NO VOUCHERS to give out) hahaha...

Thats, my first day of work with added drama salt. The one week holiday i had just passed me by, in an blink of an eye. I wished i had savor it rather than rushing things through.

Before i end my thoughts for the 3rd of September 2007, i thank you guys for checking up on me in my new job. You fellas know who you are. :)

THANKS!

Some pictures:

The best tour guide ever! The one on the left of course. Hehehe... If you ever see this ar, thank you so much for the awesome time in Sing. And to you the boy on the right, you were awesome too. :p

Another reason to visit Singapore more often.

Wanted to post more pictures of me Singapore girlfriend and the food there but the net wouldn't let me load the pictures and i'm too tired to try. Sommore, have to be at work at 8. Wish me luck.

Till the next time i come.

Been away for a few days. Just a break.
Came back and wrote a few, took out a few, re-pasted a few.

Obviously offended a few.

I wish i was still having the break.

I am starting to think i'm a tough person to deal with.

Should just let things pass and move on.

Maybe, i just need to grow up.

I'm sure YOU would agree.

*BIG SIGH