We laughed till we teared, we talked so loud that people turned their heads, we was just uncontrollable. Times like this does not come as often we like to. It has been 3 years since we sat down and talked. Still, there were regulars missing from our midst.

Some still in aussie land, some migrated to somewhere else, some just went missing from the surface of the earth.

Time just flew. We just sat reminising the good old days. Age is catching up. We had to admit it. However, still when we look back, the trials and tribulation of life came back and haunt us. It was hard, but we moved on. Moving on with a mark in our life. Some things its just hard to let go. Till now, it still is.

...tonight will be the night that i will fall for you, over again..

I in love with this song. So much so that i am actually expecting something to happen tonight. It might, it might not but thats not the point. Its just the anticipation, the weeeeeee feeling (er.. yea), the going back to reminising the good times we had or erm, we gonna have. Muahahhaha... Pardon me, today is monday.

Putting hopes to high is not a good thing though. It may come crashing down and hit me right at the face. Well, i'm pro in these things already. Gotta adapt the WTF attitude.

But that song, you can hear it everywhere on the radio. Its cool, its so cool it made me fall in love all over again. *sigh* i can sit here all day just humming that song and it just creates the emdorphines and send it flying all over. No need chocolate, no need biting, no need binge eating.

Its all good for now.

I AM REDEEMED!! sorry sudah ada orang punye. HAHAHA!

Bare

Sometimes we do things we don't understand.

Sometimes we say things we don't mean.

I do that very frequent. Being pro in the way i talk, seemingly knowing what i say, in fact i don't most of the time. What i say, what i think and what i feel goes their own way, have their own mind. Sadly, speaks different language.

Last weekend, i don't know what i did. Don't know why should i even resort to doing it. It bore the hell out of me. It wasn't too bad cause i made a friend, a friend with dead treats every minute someone spots him around. I was lucky cause i know i'll get out of that place very much alive.

Yes. a cockroach.

I wonder at the dark circles around my eyes, the dehydrated skin, the flabby chubby meat, the disproportionate-ness, the fact i was actually where i was. i sigh loudly.

We wonder, we speculate, we assume, we anticipate. Some good, some bad. Most of us couldn't help but to wonder off on the worst that could happened. Suddenly, it happened.

Times like this its hard to keep your cool. Its hard to act as if everything was as normal. It only takes one word to drive you up the wall, to make you loose yourself, to swerve your mind to the other side of the road.

Tea? Dinner? Supper? and... late night snacks? Till then, you wonder, whats next? Probably you can suggest a Pea Party for a Pea Brain like him. Ah, probably he's into one of his 'strategies' mode.

Scared? I heard it ample times, i'm amused and getting used to it. Sail with me, we're in the same ship. Being sailed to a place where you and i don't know. How exciting.

So far away, when night was day and day was night. Safe journey was out out sight. Out of sight, out of mind? Being committed is never an option, cause they are just plain scared. I tell'ya, release yourself, you can make people's eyeballs drop off.

Alright. Each paragraph represents someone i met this week. The thoughts are here there and everywhere. I need time to digest. Being the slow-mo i've always been, i take hours to do stuff people can grasp in a few minutes. Thats why, i write short.

I know, damn hard to understand isn't it. Me too, i find it incomprehensible and plain wasting of time.

At least it ends with two pretty girls for you.

ONE.TWO.THREE.CUT!

Time flies. It has been a year. An exciting, new, fresh year. When it comes to the season, we'll automatically get together and gel. Its almost like a daily routine already. Only that, it does not happen that frequent.

Having these dudes to tell you the tales of the industry is really an eye opener. I still have a long long way to go if i'm gonna stay in this industry. A long long one.

Its hard to express what i feel for these dudes. They are just so... ahpek. Ahpek-ly stylo, ahpek-ly happening. So ahpek, but yet good in what they do. *salute* Some more always bring me smiles, laughter and lots of unnecessary vulgarity. Which, i really don't mind cause they do it so ahpek-ly natural, which you just can never be angry. *smile*

Special Teh-O

Ahpek who only looks good on his left side

Artsy Ahpek

Sleeping Ahpek

WRAP!

*SMILES*

Its a string of anniversaries. Obvious enough that its not celebration.

People come people go. But the absence sends emptiness down my spine through the heart.

The years has passed, life commenced like usual. Work, Eat, Shit and Work.

Somehow, somewhere the emptiness lies. Somethings in life, when you fall you just pick yourself up and move on. But some things, it takes time, sometimes the time frame is beyond expected. Living it out normal may only be a facade.

Regrets are bound to have, i'll take it to my grave. Presence is bound to missed, i'll treasure it more. Its hard to deal with, but i'll deal with it. An impact in life i'll not forget.

冰冷的空气突然在我耳边吹过。突然充满寂寞，孤单，折磨。太暗了，看不见您深处的双手，感觉不了你的天空。有了相反的梦。是我不争气，感觉不了了。你的离开是我一生中的遗憾， 挽回不了的遗憾。无论你在何方，我知道你会保佑我的。命中注定是我一个人的勇敢。

Anniversary

It has been a long while,
The traces lingers eventhough it has been 8 years,
Sadness swelled up as the regrets poured itself in.
It will be just for a day, i promised.

Nothing has been the same since that day.
Realising your absence was an imperative influence.
Yet, reliving was not an option.

The world has changed much, sometimes its like a warzone.
Gone were the days of our little cackles.
With the on going tidle tadles in life,
you will always have a place in my heart.

Luv

Deceived

Ever been deceived by the looks of one person. "ooo... so hensem.." manatau, inside rotten. "ooo... face like angel" manatau, heart like devil. The oh so frequent ones nowadays are pictorial stuff like... "ooo... like so sedap..." manatau, takde taste at all. "ooo... i want that..." manatau, cheh so little one ah.

Looks can be so deceiving at times. What you see may not be what you get. At times, i feel short changed. I have sacrificed so much and this is how i'm repayed? ok, my meagre salary aside.

Do not judge a book by its cover. Outside nice nice, inside think twice. But honestly, packaging is very important. Being any product on selling floor, packaging is crucial. Rotten packaging gets rotten feedback. Met a lady staff on floor today, i asked her about a baju that she's dressing the manequin in "ade orang beli meh?" She answered "thats why i letak kat manequin, present nice nice, orang tau boleh pakai ini dan nampak style ma"

Well, we stood there a good 10-15 minutes figuring out how to 'present' it stylo-ly. And tadaa, the next day got people buy. (Probably go home and then only regret... mauhahahhaha... Wise spending very important i tell ya.) The power of packaging. NO, the products at the stores that i'm in (if you know where) are tip top, and good quality. Be rest assured.

Its the whole idea of potraying one thing or even oneself. Deceiving? When its not actually the 'real' thing inside, yea its deceiving.

LOOK, presentation a-ok. The bowl so big. Inside so little. AND, the picture in the menu (should've taken a picture) like so sedap. Manatau, one bite... takde taste! *sigh

Luckily got DBKL, or else wasted only.

And more complaints, the ginger ale is diluted like mad. The color speaks for itself. *sigh

Ok, dah habis complain. Tunggu la, i think my upcoming complaints are nearby...

Mistakes

Were there times in life you wished you hadn't make the decision? There are times in my life where i wished i was not placed in the situation. There are times i wished i had made a stand for myself. Times where i wished i voiced out what was on my mind. Times where i wished i tried harder. Times where i wished i could literally dig the person's eyeballs out. Times i wished things would just turned out differently.

Mistakes. Life mistakes is part of the growing up journey. At age 25, i had my fair share of mistakes. I learned, i move on.

I wanna share with you my recent mistake.. trusting a guy i met for a short period of time. Its now a BIG NO NO for me. Especially when they are kinda cute. *SIGH

HE TOLD ME HE'LL MAKE MY FACE SMALLER... he didn't.

Instead, bigger.

The compensation is, i kinda like my hair color with the streaks. But people told me its ahlian. But that comment, i don't mind. I'm a true ahlian inside actually. *snicker

But the odd part is everyone i see in JB says my face in fact do look smaller, but in KL, everyone says its BIGGER. I kena conned. BIG MISTAKE. Should really consider hibernating.

I was all smiley cause people in JB says my face smaller mar.

ALL HAIL ms face-like-apple!