People come and go in our lives. Some made their mark and then dissapear.
Some stayed and friendship continues to bloom.
Life's journey can be harder than we imagined it to be.
Friends or foe, they play a big part.

Some we make an effort, some we just forgo.
Its the little things that happens, the chemistries that brought us all together.
For a long while or for a short period of time, its up to us all.

I thank you for the little encouraging messages, thank you for thinking of me.
Thank you for being there, thank you for caring.
Theres so much we can meet, talk and bond.
With busy lives, knowing that i was thought of is special enough to keep the friendship going.

Always believe and will keep on believing that crossing path in this vast universe has a special meaning, has a special reason.
To it all, cheers to friends...

SMILEEEEEEeeeeeeee

Surrounded with gloom makes the cloud darker.
It helped by giving everything i see a twinkle.

I apologise for the super lacked of picture.
I hereby put some of the happy times...

*smiley always too ya*

I realised, after loading more pictures than i thought i would, there too many of those happy stuff. I would love to upload more but emm... nak tidor dah. Am truly blessed. Thank God for companies and memories.

Tengah tunggu bas 106 balik Magill. Winter sommore... sejjuuuukkk....

My neighbour lost in a game we played, guess what we made him do.. haha

Give me the toughest, i'll bring out the woman in you. :p


The lovely St Kilda...

Fire works marks new beggining :)

GRADUATED!!!! BANGGA!!

Kawan baiku yang terencat sikit...

Itu masa gembira di jepun.

It gets syok-er when you sit swing as you get older...

My darling sooo happy, i also happy... laughing at him

Dekat shop orang, main main..

My first DRASTIC potongan...

First buffet in a loooooogg time. Itu kokonut sedap giler tau.

picture sangat low-res. Gembiranya, walaupun sudah tua.

First gig that broke my emcee virginity

Macam i doing some pulling skin.. muahahah..

Tengoklah reaksi kawanku, macam tak pernah guna. :p

How do you get a 12 year old boy who is reaching puberty to cheek-kiss you?

Buy him what he wants.

Itu masa, nyanyi macam giler

Nak senyum selalu? dapat strange sikit punye kawan.

Muaahhahahahhahahaaa...

Nak gelak? dapat kawan yang lagi strange...

Living for myself

Its Sunday. The weekend has just flowed by so quickly. I'm contented being able to do it all this weekend, with family especially.

On another note, life has been treating me pretty well.
The past learning experience has been very influential as to the growing up framework.
Reminiscing and working out issues has come and gone, the new will seep in gradually.
Waiting for the readiness to move forward and looking towards new challenges.

Theres so much more out there than just the little bumps and hardships in life now.
More to explore, more to flaunt, more to discover.
Its getting extremely exciting that sometimes theres fear of coping.
But with advises, do it while you're young.

Its the prime time. I fall with my mistakes, i stand up with a tougher armour.
I cry when its too hurtful to bear, i'll wipe the tears away and move on
I crash when the stress gets to you, i'll find a solution and overcome.

'Pang' of life comes as it may. No one knows when.
Learning still, to start living for myself.

The word busy is not hardcore enough. It underestimates the real busy-busy like no-time-to-go-wee-wee-also feeling. This week, i felt overused, over worked, overwhelmed. Its been a while since i've gotten sick and felt the throbbing headache. It came to haunt me this season.

Spending almost a full day in Klang does not help at all. Klang's air seems hazier, gloomier... rather the scorching sun burning through the flesh. Even if i would have taken off all my clothes, it won't make much difference. I'm not biased, but to me somehow, Klang seems a little non-friendly.

Cannot wait for a break. A day off here there doesn't actually help. Am very very envious to the neighbour who took a week off. VERY ENVIOUS. *actually i have a series of work planned for him* SNICKER LOUD LOUD

Hey waiter, give me a holiday please.. thanks :)

*smuak

First and last

I surprised myself today. Being able to actually use the power that i had.
The outcome was not as thrilling as i thought it would be.

Through this blog, i do not hide from anyone. Rather i do not hide it on purpose.
Whatever is expressed is at some point of my journey here as a human being.
I may misjudge or misinterpret situations, but the expression comes from the genuine then.

After today's tiny incident, a soul serching is must. As i ponder upon my own character as an individual. Well, i'm not going insane if you are thinking otherwise.

I'm probably too old for this. Should have soul searched many many moons before. I am coming face to face with who i am really and my alter egos. It suprises me to actually see the various, multiple masks i can put on. It terrifies me to a certain extend.

Of course, it makes work a lot easier. Personally, its taken a toll. I never thought i could be that mean, never thought i could go that far, never thought i could make a person depressed. Being utterly dissapointed with my ownself.

Starting a relationship is easy, its just words that sweep you off your feet, gestures that makes your heart skip a beat. Then, it was all that matters. What happens if your heart does not skip that particular beat anymore, your feet are glued to the ground, your emotions suddenly vanished?

Now i stand at a side i never imagined to be in a million years. Never thought dealing with situations like this would be that tough. When i see your tears, my tears falls too. Unimaginable hurt. I swore, i'll never ever do this to another person ever again. It tears me apart just seeing you gulping it all in. But what choice was there?

60 minutes. It was the toughest 60 minutes ever in my life. It went so painfully slow.
I finally knew how the others felt. The experience will not go in vain. An experience i would treasure, the first and the last it will be.

Addiction

Since the day i got sick, sleeping was my soul mate.
I slept till theres no tomorrow, realising that i have not slept this much in quite a while.
Sleeping help rejuvenate skin, recuperate your strength, or something like that along the line.
But waking up i feel sleepier than ever... wanting sommore till i know i can't lie in bed all day long. Addicted to sleep i was.

Yes. i am a sleep-addict.

Nothing beats working on a sunday.
With much on the mind, lists of to-do's its enought to make me go hair wire.

Travelling is a blessing in disguise. Going through borders, it gives me time to read a good book, time to comparmentalised thoughts. The time was precious.

With the mumble and jumble of life, i sorted some feelings and thoughts and too, determination to achieve. What? for me to know for you to find out.

There are many in life i took for granted. We just need to realise it. I look back to what i've achieve so far and what i have and going to do. I thank God. With great friends, colleagues and bosses. It made me satiated, so far.

Sorting and coming front face embracing my feelings was the toughest, but it had to be done somehow.

Going back to work now.